I HATE THIS THREAD!
Actually, I think I'll save it in faves to look back on as my
LOVE/HATE thread.
Until reading through it, I had this nagging "something" that from time to time ....bothers... me.
Bonsai ain't sposed ta BOTHER a feller.
Bonsai Nut summed it up with, "It has to move me emotionally. It has to have a "wow" factor."
I don't know about the "WOW" but I can sure understand the essence of a lot of this thread in seeking ....
.....................EVOCATIVE !!!
Man, what a sumbitch of a word applied to bonsai.
Try to define, "essence."
I can surely now recognize my misconception of that.
What does the tree ...EVOKE?
Does it evoke the memory of the spider mites? The broken branch? The time it got too DRY? The time it got too WET? Sheeze, it's endless.
But not really IF I can transform my concern with technical issues such as nebari or jin or shari and get to the ESSENCE of the damn thing. Get out of the narrow focus on ELEMENTS and try to gain a sense of ENTIRE ART!
I...think.... I can go out and look through different eyes now and maybe satisfy myself. (without going insane or getting warts, of course.
)
It's gonna be a sea change. Not TOO drastic, as many of my trees DO "transport" me to a reminder of a place or emotion. But trying to learn to do it INSTINCTIVELY.... is a challenge for me to transform from an "advice seeker" to an artistic "aspiration. "
I hope I can succeed and think I will if I refer occasionally to this DAMN thread.
After reading THIS DAMN thread I wanna go back and dump a lot of my other threads.
I won't as I need the reminder of how not to confine it to a "wax on/wax off" chore and to a "LOOK INTO IT" mindset.
Suddenly, my thread about making a Spirea look ....."cuter"....... pisses me off.
I look at the lil thing again and can now SEE what made me think it was "cute." The branch on the left just reminds me of a tree in a field where I could hang a tire swing or bonk my head walking under it.
BUT IT LOOKS LIKE A TREE IN ESSENCE!
(to ME)
In fact, when I end this opus, I'm gonna go out and tilt a couple branches UP from where I wired them in obeisance to the damn "levels,....... LEVELS...Buster" command.
Gonna look at some others too to see if any changes would work to accomplish this indescribable "feeliing."
Bolero, thanks for starting this DAMN THREAD !!