SI have decided to go back into bonsaiNut seclusion.ee ya guys.

This thred....is bonkers

here’s some trees, not my best, some of the worst, random grab and shoot, mistakes made but all wild collectibles or nursery stock, from nothing...just for the love of the game

side note Dock Ellis no-hitter, 50 ya today
Thanks
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He lost me at waah.

Nobody needs an attention seeker, no matter how good they are at their art. Plenty of other people and places to get good advice.
 
About suicide : my elder sister took her life when I was eighteen. Now, suicide is a complete no-no, I know how it destroyed the people who loved her.

For the first time in 40 years I had a hint I would end my own life during the lockdown. I wrote to my best friend that I was glad guns weren't available here because when you're down, depressed and drunk, it would be so easy to play with a trigger, thinking "Ah, she/they didn't believe I felt so bad". Fortunately, I'm not a teenager any more, and other means of taking one's life needs so much preparation.
My wife is dead...remember she committed suicide to get away from my aggressive ways.

My Brother too took his own life around 10 years ago, on the eve of his 18th birthday. It left a deep hole in my family, one that can never be filled. C'mon Smoke. I'm sorry your wife had to go through what she did. 99% of users here are. Don't shoot your principles because of the other 1%. This is a bonsai forum, you're one of the most knowledgeable and active users and you're a service to both this forum and to all of us using it, but again please, stop attacking others with their tragedies, and if you didn't mean to attack others, don't mention stuff that could hurt others just for the sake of it. We all have our demons, and most of us find solace in hobbies and bonsai does that for me. I've only started this hobby around 6 years ago, and all i have is planted in the ground. If your'e going to ask me to post my pictures, i come here for advice, i don't normally post but rather serach the forum for the query i have and also read other topics that might be of interest to me. Does that make me a lurker in your eyes? am i offending anyone by doing so? Don't i have the right to tell you that us, sufferers from suicide hurt when you mention stuff like that?

My most lengthy post on a bonsai forum was about principles and suicide, go figure that.

Let's all try to get on and if it means that you should be the one to bow your head first, why not?
 
My wife is dead...remember she committed suicide to get away from my aggressive ways.
As one who has lost a loved one to suicide...that's appauling. To make jest of something of that nature. That's all I have to say about that. Was thinning my ignore list...and now, I see why I have some still on it. He was just a kid...My step brother found him...I don't have time for ones who make light of this sort of nature. You are making a good name for yourself Al... *sarcasm.
 
That's not up for me to decide. Greg does the banning here not me. I get frustrated because people have no ability to except criticism and improve. I respect your reason for not doing it, but respect the forum and not feel a need to talk about other peoples tree when you don't post your own. It just is not fair for the people that do post, and twenty people come in and shatter a guys dream with language you gleaned from some imbecile here last week.

You have no flaw, we are humans and have a need to talk and say stupid shit. It's what we do. I'm not proud of this feeling I have of the forum and they way I talk some times, and it is the reason I wish I could just throw it away, but the overwhelming need in me to help is more powerful than the need to stop. I try, but people just don't seem to want to be helped, they wish to argue because of their shortcomings...and that's the crux of that matter...shortcomings. If you don't mind, post this in the new thread, allow people to see how you stack up against the forum...be proud, we all start somewhere, but we get better with help. Resisting the help is what I don't understand. Can I help you, of course i can. Can you open your ears and shut your pie hole, that remains to be seen.....

@Smoke this is the most real post of yours I have ever read. It DOES go a long way towards reframing my opinion of you as an individual. Thank you for this.

I have thought about starting threads on many of my trees. What holds me back is NOT fear of criticism or open discussion as many assume. It really is that I do not practice bonsai in any traditional sense. I have a 30 year old crassula my wife gave me when we were still just dating. I love and cherish that plant but I have always moved on cutting and thrown away the base whenever it outgrew my space. I've recently seen some rather impressive specimen that mine could have been had I grown it as bonsai instead of a weed. One has a 6" plus trunk! I don't regret it. I don't grow things to impress others. Much of my collection are from seed I picked up from or order specifically because of trees that I saw and remind me of time with family. I have live oak from that trip to New Orleans, gambelli oak from that time in Utah, a couple paper bark maple to remind me of that tree in the arboretum we saw on my daughter's band trip... The only real crossover from what I do and BNut is that if you Google pretty much anything about trees and tree horticulture...bonsai or not...BNut comes up.

Anyway @Smoke, I have never had issue with your credibility or knowledge...you are clearly an accomplished individual. I have had issue with the way you often present yourself. There are ways to state opposing opinions that are closed and off-putting and there are ways to state opposing opinions that are open and thought provoking.

And for those who think me a troll and I should leave and never return...turns out it is as Smoke says. There does not appear to be anything that I can do to leave the community. I've asked for my account to be shut down and my username anonymized. Maybe it just hasn't worked its way through the system...but thus far my efforts to permanently leave this community have failed. Sorry!

It does make me wonder how nasty I'd have to get to get banned though ;)
 
It does make me wonder how nasty I'd have to get to get banned though

Since this is a....ahem...wide open .... discussion.

I don't know if @carp got banned after talking about consentual butt love with a girl, but for me, there's nothing wrong with that, but when people say "butthurt", do they realize they are talking about rape? That gets me more upset than casual mutual talk about relations.

Which is to point out how simply the "truth" is different for people, depending on their frame of mind.

Anyway...

Everyone else I know that has gotten banned banned themselves, and they all seem to have started with these same Narcissiststic Intentions.

Sorce
 
@Smoke this is the most real post of yours I have ever read. It DOES go a long way towards reframing my opinion of you as an individual. Thank you for this.

I have thought about starting threads on many of my trees. What holds me back is NOT fear of criticism or open discussion as many assume. It really is that I do not practice bonsai in any traditional sense. I have a 30 year old crassula my wife gave me when we were still just dating. I love and cherish that plant but I have always moved on cutting and thrown away the base whenever it outgrew my space. I've recently seen some rather impressive specimen that mine could have been had I grown it as bonsai instead of a weed. One has a 6" plus trunk! I don't regret it. I don't grow things to impress others. Much of my collection are from seed I picked up from or order specifically because of trees that I saw and remind me of time with family. I have live oak from that trip to New Orleans, gambelli oak from that time in Utah, a couple paper bark maple to remind me of that tree in the arboretum we saw on my daughter's band trip... The only real crossover from what I do and BNut is that if you Google pretty much anything about trees and tree horticulture...bonsai or not...BNut comes up.

Anyway @Smoke, I have never had issue with your credibility or knowledge...you are clearly an accomplished individual. I have had issue with the way you often present yourself. There are ways to state opposing opinions that are closed and off-putting and there are ways to state opposing opinions that are open and thought provoking.

And for those who think me a troll and I should leave and never return...turns out it is as Smoke says. There does not appear to be anything that I can do to leave the community. I've asked for my account to be shut down and my username anonymized. Maybe it just hasn't worked its way through the system...but thus far my efforts to permanently leave this community have failed. Sorry!

It does make me wonder how nasty I'd have to get to get banned though ;)
Oh you can get banned, and it seems multiple times in fact. I've seen it happen here.
I appreciate when someone has a reply and doesn't go all ape shit and start off by telling one what a dick they are...I always look at those posts and just ignore them because I see that person no different than I. If you wish to get your point across, show me how great a person you are, don't stoop to the level your accusing me of being.

This thread continues, and it is even today...it will probably last thru the weekend and fizzle out by Monday..Been here fifteen years, seen way too many of these confrontations. At least I can say I have not been involved in all of them, in fact not that many really.

Here is the deal about bonsai...there are two ways to do it.
The lazy, uninformed, uneducated, un-talented way
...and .... the correct way.

The two do not crossover. Its either on it's way to great bonsai, or it's gonna be a newbie thread forever. The person doing the posting, and the nasty behavior because someone may say something undesirable about their plant, is the one that has a razor edge to walk on, no one else. They can thank each person for input, they can give a simple thanks with the push of a button and type nothing, or they can become defensive and decide to argue about it. That choice comes from the poster, not the person that comes into the thread giving advice. If you don't want my advice. Then just say so, Thanks Al but I have my own ideas. From my perspective Ok your on your own. Why come here then?

If you post a tree and I come in and tell you it's a piece of shit, I don't tell you that cause I just wish to be a dick, I tell you that cause it's the truth. If this place has no room for telling the truth, why post trees here. If I tell a person their wasting their time, you can take that to the bank. If you feel differently, why are you posting here? If your reason to be here is to just post a shitty tree and take no criticism or advice, your just posting plants, (not bonsai) and taking up bandwidth.

There is a thread started here...https://www.bonsainut.com/threads/newbies-want-to-share-your-trees.44217/#post-754094

So far a couple people have posted.... I was going to make some suggestions for some, but decided it's not my place to say anything and just let them have their showcase. These are the quotes that stand out....

"hoping will survive to learn on"
"Nothing I would consider to be good material"
"will likely not have the knowledge to advise each other"
"point out all the daft mistakes we're making"
"all posting pretty sub-par trees together"
"I am afraid to do anything until winter"
"Some of them look sad"
"lot of info on here about developing cheap nursery stock"

I decided that there was absolutely no way I could say anything constructive to help any of these people. They already know what the stock looks like, they already know some may die, pretty sub par stuff, some look sad and me coming in and piling on is not going to move this stuff in a better direction. The future for these posters has to come from within. They have to change their mentality towards bonsai. I have no idea what the limitations are towards better material, may be lack of material where they live or most commonly, lack of money to buy proper material. Until those two things change, there will be no real advancement. Now I am willing to bet they already know that, that is why the thread is filled with so many caveats about the trees. In this case I felt it better to just let it go and let them have their place. Bothers me not.
 
Since this is a....ahem...wide open .... discussion.

I don't know if @carp got banned after talking about consentual butt love with a girl, but for me, there's nothing wrong with that, but when people say "butthurt", do they realize they are talking about rape? That gets me more upset than casual mutual talk about relations.

Which is to point out how simply the "truth" is different for people, depending on their frame of mind.

Anyway...

Everyone else I know that has gotten banned banned themselves, and they all seem to have started with these same Narcissiststic Intentions.

Sorce

Hehe...since this discussion has grown so...umm...wide open ;) Many people...myself included sometimes...don't always consider the _unintended_ repercussions of these unmoderated flameouts. Many forums moderate the behavior of their members _not_ so much to censor or close the community, but to protect their brand. Often just the closing of a thread is all t takes to cool off heads. Sometimes heads are hot enough a temporary ban is needed. But it's rarely about censorship or kicking someone out of a community...it's more usually about protecting the brand.

There is actually a very specific reason I included my tree and details about it the way I did...and it wasn't to argue with Smoke. That post is probably the most "troll" thing I have done on this site! Do a forum search for "coastal redwood". I just did...and I did after it after logging out so my account didn't bias the results.

I don't know for sure what algorithm this site uses to surface search results but I'd bet a shiny penny that how recent and how long a thread is are in the mix. That post is currently number 1!!! So now, an innocent search on something innocuous such as a tree name brings out a significant chunk of the forum's dirty laundry! Is this thread really the first thing BNut wants to come up? It might take a while for this thread to get crawled and into the major search engines and it may take a more specific search than "coastal redwood" to show up in Google...but my statements about stewarding the brand are still valid.

I'm going to get shredded now by all the members who will accuse me of trying to cause hard to this forum. I'm _not_ trying to harm this forum. Many other members have made posts similar to mine either with their own trees or with phrases that would easily be picked up in innocent searches. I injected my own example just so that I wouldn't be calling them out...well, and maybe a bit to poke at Smoke ;)

I'm not for censorship...but threads like this should really be closed with a friendly pointer to the forum's code of conduct. Such action would have cause me to not have entered the fray to begin with!
 
But it hasn't killed us, so we are stronger.

The most healthy thing is to let things play all the way out.

Pent up explodes!

I have been using this excuse to keep smoking weed, that it supresses dreams. Turns out it is true, but even our dreams get pent up, so what I am witnessing when I quit, is a giant influx of dreams. So if I can get passed that influx, maybe I can quit smoking. Not that I've the need recently.

We can let things play thru, and find peace for a spell after, or always have this nagging need to bitch, that suppresses growth!

Sorce
 
I wouldn't be calling them out...well, and maybe a bit to poke at Smoke ;)
Why I am I not surprised. It's the 2020 thing to do!
Interesting... I am reminded...Don't eat the fruit of that tree...the rest is history. Should have blown the whole thing up and started over.
 
If you post a tree and I come in and tell you it's a piece of shit, I don't tell you that cause I just wish to be a dick, I tell you that cause it's the truth. If this place has no room for telling the truth, why post trees here. If I tell a person their wasting their time, you can take that to the bank. If you feel differently, why are you posting here? If your reason to be here is to just post a shitty tree and take no criticism or advice, your just posting plants, (not bonsai) and taking up bandwidth.

I have lots of personal experience in the underlying situation this paragraph represents...from both sides of the coin. This is not an uncommon situation between "knowledge expert" and "person who's not really sure where this thing is going but they are on the tracks and going somewhere". In my career, I'm very much a "knowledge expert". In bonsai, I'm the other guy. It sucks at both extremes.

In my career I've been called a bully and at least 2 people have quit because of me telling them "it's a piece of shit" to help them get better and not just to "be a dick". What I have learned as I age is that yes, it is incredibly frustrating to explain to the 10,000th new hire that what they are doing is wrong and it needs to be this way instead. I have also learned there are ways to convey that exact same information that are received and acted upon better than others. One technique I have learned, for example, is to never make negative statements. Instead, ask why they chose to go that route. Then explain and back up with resources why that is not the appropriate thing here.

On the other side of the coin, each of us noobs have different expectations and goals. It's a poor assumption on the "knowledge expert's" part to assume a noob wants to be a master. The masters...regardless of field...I have the most affinity for are the ones that question where I want to go and do not push me where I don't want to be. The masters that assume what I want because it's what they feel I should be, I have never gotten along with.
 
But it hasn't killed us, so we are stronger.

This is, perhaps, a bit myopic.

Some of my hobbies are greybeard hobbies. Astronomy in particular. I had to stop going to those meeting because everyone looked like me...aging, fattening white guy with a grey beard! No youth. Everyone complaining no youth and what can we do to re-invigorate interest by the young. At the same time every outreach I was a part of all I witnessed was condescension of the youth. We have been doing this for the longest...we know what we are doing...listen to us and you _will_ be great! Sound familiar??

Anytime there is too strong a polarization there are issues. Look at US politics, look at religion, look at economic status. Anytime there is not a "middle class" to soften and interpret across the extremes, there are issues.

I don't know the demographics of this forum. I think we've already established the listed members and "true" members are different lists. But what I refer to as the "aristocracy" is a strong pole. Strong poles tend to push others away which tends to make the pole stronger. What cannot be measured is how effective these strong poles are at keeping others away.

Is BNut a balanced and stable community? Is it one that is truly only service the aristocracy with no new blood...the community dies when they do? Is it cyclical? Does the current aristocracy die out to be replaced by a new one can now grow because the old one is dead?

And I'm realizing that was my poor assumption: the BNut wanted to be a stable and balanced community. If the brand is experienced and established masters only then the rest of us are really just prey...
 
Oh you can get banned, and it seems multiple times in fact. I've seen it happen here.
I appreciate when someone has a reply and doesn't go all ape shit and start off by telling one what a dick they are...I always look at those posts and just ignore them because I see that person no different than I. If you wish to get your point across, show me how great a person you are, don't stoop to the level your accusing me of being.

This thread continues, and it is even today...it will probably last thru the weekend and fizzle out by Monday..Been here fifteen years, seen way too many of these confrontations. At least I can say I have not been involved in all of them, in fact not that many really.

Here is the deal about bonsai...there are two ways to do it.
The lazy, uninformed, uneducated, un-talented way
...and .... the correct way.

The two do not crossover. Its either on it's way to great bonsai, or it's gonna be a newbie thread forever. The person doing the posting, and the nasty behavior because someone may say something undesirable about their plant, is the one that has a razor edge to walk on, no one else. They can thank each person for input, they can give a simple thanks with the push of a button and type nothing, or they can become defensive and decide to argue about it. That choice comes from the poster, not the person that comes into the thread giving advice. If you don't want my advice. Then just say so, Thanks Al but I have my own ideas. From my perspective Ok your on your own. Why come here then?

If you post a tree and I come in and tell you it's a piece of shit, I don't tell you that cause I just wish to be a dick, I tell you that cause it's the truth. If this place has no room for telling the truth, why post trees here. If I tell a person their wasting their time, you can take that to the bank. If you feel differently, why are you posting here? If your reason to be here is to just post a shitty tree and take no criticism or advice, your just posting plants, (not bonsai) and taking up bandwidth.

There is a thread started here...https://www.bonsainut.com/threads/newbies-want-to-share-your-trees.44217/#post-754094

So far a couple people have posted.... I was going to make some suggestions for some, but decided it's not my place to say anything and just let them have their showcase. These are the quotes that stand out....

"hoping will survive to learn on"
"Nothing I would consider to be good material"
"will likely not have the knowledge to advise each other"
"point out all the daft mistakes we're making"
"all posting pretty sub-par trees together"
"I am afraid to do anything until winter"
"Some of them look sad"
"lot of info on here about developing cheap nursery stock"

I decided that there was absolutely no way I could say anything constructive to help any of these people. They already know what the stock looks like, they already know some may die, pretty sub par stuff, some look sad and me coming in and piling on is not going to move this stuff in a better direction. The future for these posters has to come from within. They have to change their mentality towards bonsai. I have no idea what the limitations are towards better material, may be lack of material where they live or most commonly, lack of money to buy proper material. Until those two things change, there will be no real advancement. Now I am willing to bet they already know that, that is why the thread is filled with so many caveats about the trees. In this case I felt it better to just let it go and let them have their place. Bothers me not.

Gosh you've really done your homework on me eh?

In a way I understand where you are coming from here...yes I need to get better material to be what you consider to be successful in bonsai. However I strongly disagree that there is no advice or constructive comments that could help me progress. I don't need to change my mentality at all. I need to carry on learning the basics on inexpensive trees, so that when I do get the knowledge to go dig or buy some good material (and be able to spot good material in the first place) I'll have a more of an idea on how to look after them and style them in a desirable way.

I stand by my thread and all of the posts I've made so far. Yes I'm aware the thread is full of caveats because I want to make it absolutely clear that I am new and really don't yet know what I'm doing!

I find the fact that you have gathered these quotes a little bit saddening really - I'm trying to learn and encourage others to post their trees...which is what you wanted, wasn't it? It's also a shame that you decided not to offer opinions/suggestions - beginners need the obvious pointing out to them, because of lack of experience (just remember to say them in a non-demoralising way and it's all good). I'd love you to give me some pointers, but just to make it absolutely clear, I'd expect them to be said in a nice way. I'm not saying you should lie and tell people their trees are great if they are absolutely not, but saying their tree is a piece of shit is really not the way to go.

So many people have given me great advice on here so far and I am hugely grateful for every single comment I have received on one of my plants (don't worry, I know they don't qualify as trees). Out of the many many comments I have already had directed at them, including the ones telling me that I've messed up and may have killed said plant, I have been offended and reacted badly to absolutely zero of them. Do you know why? Because these lovely people said their comments in a respectful way. They're given me information that I didn't know - timings to do work, soil to use, how to make cuttings, where to position...all sorts of stuff. You may feel like you are wasting your time offering these suggestions to people like myself who only have trees that will never be qualified as good, and that's fine if you don't want to spend time doing that. But to me it is not a waste of time - I need to hear these things. There is so much to learn here and it can be overwhelming and seem impossible to remember everything I need to.

So yeah, I'm going to carry on posting my shit and warmly welcoming constructive feedback I receive.

I also assume calling the thread a 'showcase' is you being sarcastic and demeaning, yet again. It's these word choices that make you seem like you don't really want to help us. The thread clearly isn't a showcase, that's the whole point of it - it's a thread to build confidence to post photos and to learn.

Feel free to PM me if you'd like to discuss any of this further.
 
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I'm not for censorship...but threads like this should really be closed with a friendly pointer to the forum's code of conduct. Such action would have cause me to not have entered the fray to begin with!
What exactly have you contributed?
 
Is it cyclical?

Everything is. You lost me on some of the rest. I think you are not arguing, but ignorants argue so much I can't tell when people ain't! lol! But seriously!

All we can do is post our yearly updates. Biannual? The best of us here, who really inform us, realize that just like a tree, nothing needs to be rushed. They tend to update, and fall back into reading. That's the content that the people who want to learn should go find.

In this numbers game, more newbs mean more that get to the stage of their tenth year of updates.

That's where all the value is.

We must nurture this human progression, or trees simply won't get posted.

How can we share as a community, if we are not first a community?

I was mowing my front lawn with the manual push mower I found in the alley, still new to it, I was sweating the technique(cross thread points). This black dude walked by and, if you miss the Hip Hop on my wrists, you could get to thinking I'm a skinhead. He was like, "haha that's old school", and I responded in a way that he knew I was cool. The recent events of earth seem to be bringing people together in an odd way. Seems this tension, is bringing much more joy to folks when they realize, I am Your Brother, your Neighbor. I mowed the shit out of the rest of the lawn, with the power of community. I could give a fuck about a lawn, so I really only mow it for other people anyway, and to not get a ticket. So that energy helps!

Humans operate best on a community first basis, its how we're programmed.

Sorce
 
Gosh you've really done your homework on me eh?

In a way I understand where you are coming from here...yes I need to get better material to be what you consider to be successful in bonsai. However I strongly disagree that there is no advice or constructive comments that could help me progress. I don't need to change my mentality at all.
Hi Clorgan nice to meet you. I see you understand that your material is not up to par. What will you be doing about that. There is lots of material for sale all over the net. Is there something I am missing as to why you can't be LEARNING on better material?
Sincerely Al Keppler
 
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