Solange
Shohin
Is there a chance that you are indeed blind to your pride? And following that which you've stated you are perhaps quickly destroying relationships that may help you? I understand people can be pretty frank on here and sometimes it's hard to not get upset. One thing I've learned is how incredibly small the bonsai community is, and thereby how easy it would be to be excommunicated. Often, even if you don't like someone, there is much they could teach you. You do appear to be displaying signs of pride in your trees, pride that perhaps rubs people especially the wrong way because you have simply purchased or traded for them. Your definitely in the deep end with your material and it's good to have as many friends as possible. And as was stated by someone before, if you are so free of pride why not apologize? The only thing it will hurt to apologize is your pride.