Honestly, I generally don't feel comfortable now commenting in your threads given our personal history here, along with the way you continue to behave. I suspect there are others like me. People didn't have it in for you when you first started posting here years ago under your real name, but the holier then thou attitude and the meanness and personal vitriol you routinely direct at others have tainted your image here to many long term B'nutters. There are instances of it all over the place here in numerous posts. Of course, we can't see your earlier posts because they were deleted when you were originally banned but I'm sure there would be examples there as well. I think you know your stuff and can certainly be a bonus to the forum but dealing with your personality is overwhelming and painful at times...and that is why I don't participate in your threads. It's sad but it's the God's honest truth.
I thank you for posting this, I think it is honest and sincere, and appreciate that
You had the balls to do it...
With this said, it is shame that I was that I was blocked / banned, what ever you
Want to call it... Because not only were my post deleted that might support your argument,
But also the post of how I was treated by the long term B-Nutters you speak of.
And to be frank, since this is what we seem to be doing... alot of folks here, I will not
Mention names, were just plain assholes to me and anyone else who dared question
Why things in bonsai were done a certain way, and as in this post if one put up a logical
idea of doing something a different way, rather than actually trying to debate the
Issue, as has been done here with this thread, I was merely scoffed at and I was made to go
on the defense for really doing nothing more than what anyone should do who is wanting
To progress, and that is question what is being done, and if there is a better way of doing
It. Most often there is not, I understand this, but by looking, one if nothing else has only reassured
The position of why it works.
I also wish we had the comments from the Bar, so we could examine them as well...
So, then I wouldn't have to try and defend myself from those who not only a clueless
As to why I was banned, but who have decided to take this information and spread it all over
The internet for the world to see, effecting not only my status within the Bonsai community, but
Also my livelihood of how I make money. If we had this, then everyone would be able to see that
For the record... the whole incident should never of happened in the first place !!! Just
As the heated arguments should not be happening. If this forum was managed properly,
And the moderators actually did their job... then nobody would of had to come to a "Bonsai" forum,
And read racist post about Muzzie and Nigger Lovers !!! Which for the record is actually why I was
Kicked off... I held the authorities feet to the fire for not handling this properly. Which I nor anyone
Else should of had to do in the first place !!! So, when you guys out there are running off to inform
Others on Facebook sites, perhaps you might include this information, seeing that you now know the
Actual reason behind the story... Would I do what I did and get kicked off again ??? In a New York
Minute, and I am not even a New Yorker... Why? Because I believed in this site, and I felt it was worth
Taking the risk.
So... were the one's that were saying these things kicked off, or were the one's who initiated insults at me
For merely asking questions or making alternate suggestions told not to, seeing that the rules before being
Changed with the server switch over, use to say no personal attacks would be tolerate... Nope, I was just told
That this was the "Old-Timmer" Bonsai way...
So, from my personal perspective, I learned and was taught by not only the Old Timers, but the
Authority here to not only be bitter, but in order to be heard, you had to fight and argue.
Does it make it right ??? Perhaps not... but, what it did make me realize, was that most were full of
Crap, and didn't know their butt from a hole in the ground when it came to Bonsai. This I learned
Was why they argued.
Since we are airing our dirty laundry, I seem to recall in my early days here commenting on one of your
Trees, the one I believed you showed Walter Pall ??? That was at first a very cool rugged piece of stock,
That looked as though it could have been growing on a cliff and had been exposed to countless years of
Battle between the elements, I thought you had lost some of the feel by taking it in a direction that was fluffy,
With lots of foliage, I made the suggestion that I felt you were going in the wrong direction, which is fine
Differences of options... but, rather than discussing it you kinda just shrugged me off as though I didn't know
What I was talking about. This would be the reason, why we latter had our little tiff when this exact same thing
Happened, but somehow didn't happen to Dario...
So, you and the others can think of me as you will. I am an asshole, I don't know what I am talking about... etc.
I have already had my name trashed by people who never actually even met me, don't know a thing about me,
Didn't even bother to take the time to learn, all because I decided to join an online forum to try and discus Bonsai,
but instead had to endure everything else but bonsai...
And I will keep doing as I do, until perhaps someone gives me a reason not too.
This thread was started with good intentions, and as usual can't be discussed in a
Civilized way, other than through insults... but, am I really surprised ??? Not really, these guys
Were just doing what has always been done here at the Nut House.
Clearly somewhere along the way in all this... I feel out with the "cool kid" crowd...
And that's fine. I don't need to be a part of the group to do Bonsai.
I will keep doing what I do, trying out new and dumb things... I will keep posting my
Trees for no one to comment on, and will disagree with things as I see fit.
When someone comes and takes the time to seriously ask a question, or wants to
Debate an issue, I will however give them the respect that they are only trying
To learn.